Midnight creatures
Knew my matte secrets
Secrets of my lusty trysts
With enchanted princes
Kings of forbidden kingdoms
Even merchants of steel
I have been a slave to my desires
Groanings that wondered my thighs
Ashamed not of my naked breasts
That feared not
The touch of a man
A man mastered in the craft of lovemaking
Tampering with my sanity
At the point where whimpers escape my throat
As eyes filled with droplets of silky tears
When he entered unguarded domains of a female
My tapered past
Filled with men between my legs
Reflects in your eyes
Filled with anger
Burning with disgust
Closing in shame
Scattered with regret
You knew me as no saint
A sinner on this earthly nest
Just as you a sinner at midnight
We have sinned together
Embodied in promiscuity of nudity
Indulged in the food that ancient gods killed for
Filled our waists with wetness of abandoned forests
You cannot judge
A maiden given in to your masculine desires of fullfillment
That burned hot deep below your throat
My past
May be Tapered with sinful desires
Yet you have fallen in drunken stupor
From these very hills on my bossom
Fallen asleep
Inside these very thighs that you now despise
Hold no grudge against my past
My passion now exists only for you
Allow my tongue to erase
Thoughts that haunt you
On my knees I will stay
Until you call my name again
With a burn that melts the heat from volcanoes
You are my sin
As I am your sinner



Shades of many shades in my soul
Has been turning me around in my bed
Drinking tea from a ceramic tea cup of chinese origins
Driving myself into a rollercoaster of dirty emotions
Needing to speak to someone who knows my pain
Big bangs of loosing control of my own sanity
Sparks of fire
Peaceless nights
Spectacles intact
Windscreen shouting in danger Turning everything upside down Concious of a cold
Shivers in the night
White handkerchiefs of a 19th centuty gentleman
Paddles in muddy weather of raindrops
Washing my soul with laxatives, painkillers, eyeing that meth
Just to numb the pains of shades in my soul
This glass of wine
This cup of tea
This mug of porridge
Staring at a fish bowl, gold fish trying to find Nemo
Loss of you baby
Loss of myself
Loss of my existence
Loss of my identity
Loss of my sanity
Make no careless whispers in the night, upholding a strength of possession
Say a prayer of broken hallelujah to the single lone star in the blue night sky
Pastures of broken frontiers green with fertile lands
Seeking mercy
Searching hope
Feeding faith
Harvests in summer
Tales with static meaning of surprise dates
Wanting to shed off weight of grief without horror of pain
Partly cloudy
Shades of many shades in my soul



I watched you love another as my heart broke into millions of pieces

I wanted to touch you yet I knew you were not mine

All I could think of was your fingertips in mine

Your kiss I desired so much to the point of insanity

Waiting as if watching a plant germinate and grow from the soil

I knew you could never be mine

Your heart belonged to someone elseā€¦her

All the feelings that kept coming to the surface

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We were a walk away from reaching the altar

He said he never loved like this before

How life lied on my faceless regret

Filling me with unnecessary hopes

Dreamless nights

Channeled by midday nightmares

How was laughter to rein my conscious

Dreading a morning without his

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The day i found out about dad
Which dad
He’s never even called me
Since the last time i did
Who are you kidding
He doesnt want me
I’m just an inconvenience to him
Something he would like to sweep
Under a rug and forget
Why didn’t i get the perfect family
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