SHADES OF MY SOUL

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Shades of many shades in my soul
Has been turning me around in my bed
Drinking tea from a ceramic tea cup of chinese origins
Driving myself into a rollercoaster of dirty emotions
Needing to speak to someone who knows my pain
Big bangs of loosing control of my own sanity
Sparks of fire
Smoke
Peaceless nights
Spectacles intact
Windscreen shouting in danger Turning everything upside down Concious of a cold
Shivers in the night
White handkerchiefs of a 19th centuty gentleman
Paddles in muddy weather of raindrops
Washing my soul with laxatives, painkillers, eyeing that meth
Just to numb the pains of shades in my soul
This glass of wine
This cup of tea
This mug of porridge
Staring at a fish bowl, gold fish trying to find Nemo
Loss of you baby
Loss of myself
Loss of my existence
Loss of my identity
Loss of my sanity
Dances
Make no careless whispers in the night, upholding a strength of possession
Say a prayer of broken hallelujah to the single lone star in the blue night sky
Pastures of broken frontiers green with fertile lands
Seeking mercy
Searching hope
Feeding faith
Harvests in summer
Tales with static meaning of surprise dates
Wanting to shed off weight of grief without horror of pain
Partly cloudy
Shades of many shades in my soul

YOUR LOVE HAD THE POWER TO WOUND

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Questions run through my mind
So fast i have no answers yet
Why did i have to fall in love with you
I knew your heart was too hurt
Too clenched in anger, regrets, resentment
Yet my heart only beat for you
Your presence was all lived for
Longing to be near your heart
When it beat giving you life
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YOU LEFT ME NUMB, UNFEELING

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Before you left
I knew your arms were only mine
Your embrace belonged to only me
Your heart was etched my names
I had all of you in every fiber of me
Blood flowed only to your rhythm
Days weren’t short enough
For me to wait to see you
Enclose you in my embrace through the night
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A LOVE STILL ON CRUTCHES

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He could not understand
How she had left the comfort of his arms
Why had she been so swayed by another’s touch
Did he not tell her how much he loved her
Being with her was his reason for living
She was his eternal happiness
The dance that his soul understood so well
She had taken him from a darkened abyss of fear
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SWORN TO CELIBACY BECAUSE OF A HEARTBREAK

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His heart bore the wounds of her pain
Inflicted in the name of love
He wouldn’t let me in
Into the the dark secret that kept him away
His was a sad story he relived
Day by day
Night after night
He had loved her so much
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